Downsizing Donna

  Have you ever tried fasting as a way to kick start your weight loss? I am tossing it around a bit, I am surprised at how easy it is to not eat a meal. I have been doing away with breakfast and I don't even miss it at all. I was eating oatmeal with chocolate chips every morning which I think was causing a lot of my weight gain. Anyway, I can almost go all day without eating. BUT I am finding when I do get home to eat I am eating a pretty big plate of food. I am going to weigh in at the Walmart blood pressure machine tomorrow and let you know.

  I wonder how many people are like me and gained a ton of weight during this last year? It has been so stressful on so many levels. Have you noticed people are smoking a lot more? I don't smoke, drink or do drugs so my only stress outlet is food. That is why I eat non stop, a lot of people must be like me, have you seen how many people are overweight and unhealthy? I sit in the parking lot of a food store and I watch people come and go all day long and I am telling you that a large majority of the people are out shape, so very few people could be considered healthy. Nobody has the sparkle in their eyes anymore, everyone is like walking zombies. Anyway, back to the weight gain I am finding it very hard to re-boot my weight loss. I have tossed around all kinds of diets just thinking of which one I should attempt to use this time but nothing seems to excite me. I am finding it so relaxing to come home put a mound of food on a paper plate plop down in front of the tv and just zone out...

  I just can't seem to stop eating? What do you think that is all about? I do a little something than I sit down and eat than it all starts over again. I am getting worried because I am at that point were my knees are killing me at night, my belly is HUGE, my blood pressure is obviously skyrocketing where my emotions are all over the place. I have never been this heavy before not even when I was full term with my babies, my skin is so full with fat it is like a sausage stuffed and ready to pop. The last time I was 188 lbs. when I started TOPS but now I am at 190 lbs. but as I mentioned this time I just can't seem to stop eating. I know I enjoy eating, it is my "take me away" from my troubles thing to do. I am going to get a tape measure and do my measurements so I can see my progress if I ever get my ass in gear and get on the weight loss band wagon!

  My father-in-law passed away on Feb. 5th. my husband got a letter today from a lawyer's office informing him of this news. Nothing like hearing this type of thing from a letter. His brother has been in charge of his father's affairs for years now giving my father-in-law an allowance if you will to live on. The will is so impersonal, the first draft the assets were divided between those two brothers, but the amended one excludes my husband. We have not been in contact with him for years, so it is not unexpected he didn't leave anything to my husband but I feel hurt that he didn't give something to my children. I know it is his money to do what he will with but still it hurts. I just am at a breaking point I flip off the handle so often I need to reel myself back in.