Downsizing Donna

  Merry Christmas!! Hope everyone had a wonderful time with your family, because in the end that is all that matters. We had a wonderful lunch over at my son & daughter-in-law's house. My daughter-in-law took this picture of my husband, my grandchildren & myself. tried not to have the picture taken but I couldn't blame my daughter-in-law, I'm guessing she feels if anything happens to my husband or I at least she would have this to show the kids in the future. I look so fat!! Even with having my grandchildren blocking me you can still see how fat I am. My boobs & waist are huge, I had tried on a few different shirts before going over and nothing fit. I had to wear my men's medium work shirts which is my only option. I NEED to get myself together and get my health back!! My granddaughter's got a trampoline they wanted me to get in there with them to jump around, for the first time since being a child I had to worry about the weight limit! My granddaughter ...

  You can tell when I am fat, I am in none of my family pictures! The years I am feeling thin and sassy I take tons of pictures with me in it, but when I am fat I hide. My daughter-in-law took this shot of me without me knowing it and posted it on facebook - Yikes! Anyway, what I hate most is my grand kids are going to have a bunch of family outings without Nana. The green smoothie diet has not been going well at all, I changed it up a bit by not eating anything all day "fasting" if you will than have a dinner with no snacking. I do feel better not eating during the day but it is getting me no where on the weight loss. I am a total stress eater and I have been having a boat load of stress of late. Work has been crazy I will tell you about that another time. The other major stresser is my husband, we are in one of those fazes where things get on our nervous. Life deals you ups and downs and right now we are going thru a down which is tough to deal with on top of being so heavy...

  What a mess I have created! Here I am 194 lbs. and oh so out of shape! How did I get here? I was the leader of my local TOPS group weighing in at 145 lbs. after losing 45 lbs. I went to the gym 3 or more times a week and felt great. Now all I do is sit in a car 7am to 5:30pm.! A friend tried JJ Smith's "10 Day Green Smoothy Cleanse" and lost some weight so I bought the book and I really like it. I tired the first day smoothy and it was drinkable but the 2nd day I couldn't. I guess I need to ease my weigh into these drinks. The past two days I have been having nothing to eat or drink till we get home at night, a fasting of sorts. I do go a bit overboard at dinner and eat too much. As you can see I am ALL over the place!! I do not know which way to go, but I do know I don't want to be this heavy. I NEED to do something!!