Downsizing Donna

  It is 9 pm. and I just weighed in to see where we are at, and it said 203 lbs.!!!!!! I am moving up the scale instead of losing weight, I am blaming it on the stress of the car being broken and how much that will cost to finally get it back on the road. Then I am stressing about what little money we are making in compared to how much we are spending it scares me. The car went back in again, they changed the thermostat and hopefully that will do the trick and it will work. Thankfully they didn't charge us for this second trip in, of course we lost another two days of work. We HAVE to get back to work even though it is hot as hell.  Joining TOPS online doesn't seem to be kicking my butt in gear like I had hoped. One of the YouTube channels I watch the gal who weighs about the same as me decided to join Weight Watchers (she had been a member a few years ago). Maybe I made the mistake of not trying Weight Watchers as something new to excite me into actio...

  Our car was over heating, so we put it in for repair, we lost so many days of work. It turns out after $840.00 the car is still doing the overheating thing, we put it in for - Go Figure! Here we are down to making $7.00 for two grocery deliveries an hour and we spent $840.00 and it isn't even fixed. Everything is going up in price but we are making less and less money. It is scary, I feel sick to my stomach about it. My husband keeps talking about getting another car with a car payment and I am like how they hell can we pay a car payment when we are making $7.00 an hour. He just thinks we can find money from somewhere like we used to make, but now we have tons of new delivery drivers who are taking all the deliveries and it is getting harder and harder to make any money. So now tomorrow we are going to go to work and just pray the car holds up (It just sucks after spending so much on it we still have to worry about it). What can we do? I will leave it in Gods ...

  Are you like me and a major stress eater??? I actually think all of my weight this time is stress related. As I said it was a huge stress for me to become the main breadwinner for my husband & I after he got fired. I was always a stay-at-home mom or the jobs I did pick up were "fun" money. In our search to make money we decided on doing food deliveries for Uber & Spark. It was something we could do together and let me tell you we started right at the beginning of the pandemic, and it was scary as hell not knowing if we were going to survive doing it. People really appreciated us, but seeing the signs on the doors that they all were sick inside and here I was dropping groceries off, and they would whip open the door and their germs would fly out. I stressed ate like a mad woman during that time frame for sure! Of course, working with your husband 24/7 is nothing to sneeze at either. My husband is a very stressful person, he wears my nervous out mos...

  I decided to join TOPS again. It ended up being about $53 to join. It was like $32 the last time I was a member, so it was a bit of a price hike. I joined as an online member; you are able to change to in person meetings if the online meetings aren't working for you. I jumped into the meeting that was on last night, it was strange for sure. You are able to keep your screen & mike closed so no one sees you or hears you if you don't want to participate which I liked. In the future I may show my screen just to make it more real for me, than at the end of the meeting it was the sharing stage which I quickly left so not sure about that.. As you see I have bad teeth so I am a bit embarrassed about that but the people I deal with every day see me like this so what the hell!

  As I have said, I was previously a leader of one of our local TOPS chapter. So I know how that works and I did really well doing that program and having to go each week for a weigh in. My chapter has moved and is now an afternoon meeting which actually works really well for me. I think one of the biggest roadblocks for me is showing up heavier than when I started last time, I am very embarrassed about that. I also, didn't like the games that we had to play I just didn't care for that at all. I liked having everyone share what they were dealing with week and everyone giving ideas to help make the upcoming week better. You can join and do online meetings which I am really thinking of doing. It now costs $49 dollars to join which is a chunk of change.  Weight Watchers now is one program everyone is on, with points on food that you eat. They are running a sale $10 a month for 10 months that automatically comes out of your checking account. You do have meeting...

  Here is my family (minus my daughter-in-law who is taking the picture). I usually hid from pictures like this because I am always afraid of what my facebook friends will say when they see how fat I have gotten. Isn't that sad! Since the bleeding episode I just feel that I almost was facing not being with my family and it really wakes you up to what is important. After seeing this picture which clearly shows how heavy I am it really made me want to get going on some kind of weight loss program again just so I can enjoy time with my family.