Downsizing Donna

  I just keep gaining weight! It's not that I don't know why, I am still eating like a horse. I am having ice cream, chips, fries & potato puffs it's endless.  I still have not tried to start any form of exercise, it's like I am frozen about doing that for some reason. I have issues in the back of my mind on why, but still even though I have no alone time walking could be that time so it would be a win win situation - exercise & alone time. I find any reason not to get out that door, too hot, have my pajamas on, have to go to work, ect. I used to walk 30 to 45 minutes a day all around my area it was wonderful, and I found it to be peaceful and really helped with my stress. I shouldn't worry about my husband being home and dedicate myself to bettering myself! It's been so hot; we have not been working. Of course, that is another stressful situation - if we work it's stressful worrying about getting orders and if we don't work, we have to worry abo...

  I really hope things change for me soon. I just feel terrible all the time, not sick terrible just hate the me I have become! Yes, I am very depressed about everything if that can be said. I just have so much to work on but procrastinate doing anything! I read an article about a woman who is 101 years old she still works, drives and is active. I strive to be like that. A number of the women in my family have lived to a ripe old age. My aunt Ellie lived to 92 years old, she lived on her own for many years. Her eyesight went bad towards the end, but she held her own. What scares the shit out of me is that my health is bad, and I become a major burden to my family, nobody will want to take care of me than what?  It is 10:40 pm and I just weighed myself 208.4lbs. - I have tried to be good with not eating after 7pm but that hasn't seemed to help any. Tonight, I ate a salad about 8pm. I am stress eating; we have to babysit my grandchildren tomorrow from 11:30 to 3:30. That it is a...

  Stress Eating! That should be my middle name : ) Okay here goes my stresses for this week: I lost mine and my daughter's social security cards. I keep both cards in my pocketbook with my debit card/credit cards. I just happened to notice yesterday they weren't there. I looked everywhere, I ripped through the desk and the strong box but nothing. I am fearing that while cleaning my pocketbook out I tossed them. At least I am hoping that is what happened, and someone didn't get a hold of them : ( We got our water problem fixed, $400.00 it cost. I am sad we waited so long to get this corrected. We went so long with having to go outside to turn the water on at the pump. Life is too short to make things harder for yourself. We still have the toilet problems; they don't flush which is disgusting but we live with it. My husband doesn't have the energy to climb under the house to cut the pipe and rerun it. He also doesn't want to call in a plumber thinking it will cost...