Happy Thanksgiving 2024!
Here we are 9:24pm Thanksgiving evening. Had dinner over at my son's house with his family, my daughter and her boyfriend. It was a lovely time but I find holidays just so sad. I hate them, I wish they would do away with them for sure. Anyway, during the evening I just felt so distant from my children. I am not sure if its because I am getting old now and look at them different but neither one of them seem very loving towards me. I truly think neither one of them would want me to join their homes if they had to take care of me as I age. It makes me want to cry as I was so close to my mom and loved her so much. I was prepared to take care of her, but she passed away before that happened. I really feel so alone, it scary having this feeling I have no back up for when I become unable to take care of myself. My husband really thinks I will die before him, and dam he doesn't take care of me now so I am sure he will not take care of me when I get even older. As an examp...