The Whole World Has Gone Nuts!

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I really don't know even where to start!

This world we live in right now has gone nuts!! Pandemics, Wars, Nuclear Weapons, Food Shortages, Skyrocketing Gas Prices, ect. every day when I wake up I hold my breath to see what else has happened. If you are like my I am mentally, physically & emotionally drained! I just can't take any more bad news. I am so worried not so much for myself but for my children and grand children, what is life going to be like for them in the future??? I don't think things have ever been this bad before in the history of the existence of the humane race! Isn't it crazy to even think that, but it is true. 

So how to deal with it all...... being a stress eater needless to say I am now obese. Food is my best friend. It makes me feel okay for a little bit but the after affects are horrible. I am 5'5 and my last weigh in at the Walmart blood pressure/weight machine I was 192 lbs. my blood pressure is high. I will check in with the machine in a day or two to verify. I don't care what anyone says when you are overweight you are not your best. It hurts to be fat! THERE I SAID IT! It hurts to sleep, it hurts to sit in a car, it hurts to wear a bra, it hurts to walk, it hurts to breath ect. I could go on and on. You are not your best if you are not a healthy weight.

It is so sad for me to be this obese, just a few years ago before the pandemic started I was the leader of my local TOPS group, I had lost 50 lbs. with the help of that group and I enjoyed the members even joining a gym with some of them doing swim classes 3 or more times a week. I was in great shape and I felt good again but than my husband got fired from his job which led us to working together doing food delivery. Than the pandemic hit a few months after we started that we had no other option to work through it when most people where hold up in their houses afraid of getting the virus we were out there going to house after house not knowing if the people were sick or had been around people who were sick it was scary as hell! I ate my way through that, I found my relaxation from the stress by just eating non stop - I had gained 50 pounds back in no time at all. 

Fast forward to all of this that is going on and I can not find any relief from the stress. I just eat and eat to get through the day. I am hoping with getting this blog back up and running possible I can find some help from it to get back on the weight loss train!!

Until tomorrow!!

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